- I was thinking today how it’ll be nice to be back home so my stomach stops hurting all the time but then I remembered my stomach often hurts even more at home. I’ve only thrown up once since I’ve gotten here- go me.
- almost finished my second mural restoration. excited to start my own tomorrow or the next day.
- the peru paradox: I’m more competent here than at home. and I barely speak spanish. my anxiety weighs on me less here.
- there’s this one passage from a book I read a long time ago (I forget the name but I know the author died in the holocaust and the book was published later) about how significant events, whether fortunate or unfortunate, throw one’s character into relief, like a tree stripped of its leaves in the wind. it makes me wonder if my personality here is closer to my “true self” than how I am at home. (edit: I remember the book now. it’s called suite francaise by Irène Némirovsky)
- how do you keep going every day doing menial tasks when you know the child you hold a few hours everyday is going to die within the year from an untreatable disease?
